Clik here to view.
Reflections on HH Bhakti Tirtha Swami's Appearance Day
This year I completely forgot about my Guru Maharaja’s Vyasa-puja/Appearance Day. I only remembered it when my wife mentioned that one of her friend’s had mentioned it to her. I had been so caught up...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Let Go and Let God...Punch You In the Face
“Everyone is bound up by the resultant action of his karma. It cannot be changed. So sastra says don’t try to change your karma-phala. Better utilize that energy for becoming advanced in Krishna...
View ArticleClik here to view.
The Magical Coin
I recently acquired an old, silver tanka (somewhat similar to the one pictured above) from the reign of Husain Shah in Bengal (1493-1519). This is the same Husain Shah that enlisted Sanatana and Rupa...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Yo Gabba Gabba Prema and Other Tales of Brainwashing
A few years ago, before my daughter was born, I had watched a few episodes of the children’s television show “Yo Gabba Gabba”. I was immediately attracted to its quirky, humorous and at times...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Parental Anxiety and Vatsalya-Rasa
This past weekend my (almost) 2-year old daugher, Gita, had fallen and scraped both of her knees. She’s a very girly-girl and doesn’t tolerate pain very well. She becomes very traumatized by any type...
View ArticleClik here to view.
The Material World is a Big Ball of Suck
I wanted to write a blog post, because I haven't written in so long. Every time I start writing though I end up deleting it. It feels too forced, too much like I'm trying to make some profound point....
View ArticleSelfishness and Selflessness
What is it that makes us perceive the world in the way that we do? How is it that some devotees can be so stalwart, faithful, enthusiastic and dedicated to Guru and Krishna and yet others struggle to...
View ArticleClik here to view.
What I Learned from the Bottle...Again
I say "again" in the title, because I've gone down this path before. When I first moved out of the temple in 2002 I went back to Michigan to live with my father. I lived in his basement and became a...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Diary of Lazy Mo'Fo
The universe (aka - Shri Krishna) seems to be telling me that I'm a lazy piece of shit that's full of excuses. It started on Facebook last week when I saw a post by my dear god brother Advaita Acarya....
View ArticleClik here to view.
Sri Nityananda Trayodasi 2013
I haven't written in a long ass while. This "real" life in the "real" world has taken precedent over any online existence. My trials and tribulations, while not many, have been intense and energy...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Daily Meditation on my Gurudeva - Day 1
I want to start a daily reflection on my Guru Maharaja. The idea is to find a photo of him, whether online or in my own files, and write something about it: some memories, some reflections, some...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Daily Meditation on my Gurudeva - Day 2
This is one of the first photographs I had seen of my Guru Maharaja. The very first one I ever saw was from the same photo shoot as this one, but instead of chanting on japa beads he has his hands...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Daily Meditation on my Gurudeva - Day 3
I saw this photo for the first time when I was in Benin, Nigeria back in 2000. It was a window into the past of a version of my Guru Maharaja that I had never known. I don’t know the history of this...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Clik here to view.
Daily Meditation on my Gurudeva - Day 5
This is a version of my Gurudeva that I am very familiar with. When I think of him this is how I most remember his activities and mood. Sure, there was the preaching with the different outfits and all...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Daily Meditation on my Gurudeva - Day 6: "Gravity"
Gravity. That’s what this photo of my Guru Maharaja exudes. He wasn’t all Cheshire cat grin and laughter all of the time. Many times when I was with him his mood was like this: introspective, quiet,...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Daily Meditation on my Gurudeva - Day 7: "Spiritual Espionage"
This is what I call my Gurudeva’s “preaching-vesa”. “Vesa” is the appearance or dress of someone. I think some devotees (and even sometimes disciples) were confused by my Guru Maharaja’s preaching...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Daily Meditation on my Gurudeva - Day 8: "Blissful Life"
This is bliss. No worries, no anxieties. Just dancing, chanting, feasting. Sure, being a Swami isn’t all fun and games. It’s physically and mentally draining to travel around the world and to deal with...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Daily Meditation on my Gurudeva - Days 9-14
Day 9 This one is hard to look at. It brings up so many emotions: loss, sadness, regret, resentment, confusion. I’ll never forget where I was when he left his body. My wife, Kadamba mala, and I were...
View ArticleWhere Did the Reflections Go?
My ambitious project to record a daily meditation/reflection on a photo of my Guru Maharaja ultimately crashed and burned. I realized after the Day 9 through 14 post that writing about six photos in...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Where Has my Krishna Consciousness Gone?
Lately I’ve been wrapped up in the non-essentials of spiritual life: work, family, money, car problems, entertainment, sense gratification, etc. The only glimmer of devotional activity in my life...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Decompression Chamber
Re-compression, decompression, whatever you want to call it. It just popped into my head. Was thinking about the weekend and the combined 28-hours (waking hours) of non-stop being with my 3.5-year old...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Remembering My Guru Maharaja
The past few days have been rather heavy for me. I’ve been meditating on my Guru Maharaja more intensely than usual. Perhaps it’s because we just celebrated his Appearance Day (Vyasa-puja) yesterday. I...
View ArticleClik here to view.
Reflections on Sri Nityananda Prabhu's Appearance Day
These festival days in the Bhakti tradition come and go so quickly. Sri Nityananda Prabhu’s Appearance Day festival was this past Sunday. Even though I have drifted so far from any substantial daily...
View ArticleHello KDP Review Team!
Hello Kindle Direct Publishing Review Team! I don't know how much more I can prove to you I am who I say I am! My name is Jayadeva (Jason G.). I've been writing you emails trying to get my book "In...
View Article
